Is her life over-Scenario 2

 

 

 …she had to see things through his eyes

One of the tragedies of married life

                                      Mrs.Dalloway-Virginia Woolf

 

 

Write in the voice of your favorite writer.

 

Jeff Goins cue made me think of the many possibilities.

I settled to try and write in the voice of “Mrs. Dalloway”.

In the first scenario of a 52 year old Mrs.Dalloway in Tripoli we tried to see the life of a now bored wife of a rich businessman whose many personal and professional affairs she tolerates, for the sake of her social position and mask and her children.

 

In the second scenario  an imaginary 52 year old expatriate worker, who has done some things in her personal life, and now is living Ibsen’s reality- The sins of the fathers are visited upon the children.

 

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Laughing and delightful, she had met Carlos in the church.

They became friends and one of the old timers told me that he was not her first or even legal husband.  As we walked up the stairs of the office to the pension department he told that these were the papers of her first and legal husband from whom she had no children.

“He was a thorough gentleman, though weak in some ways which Carlos satisfied her,” Sam revealed an aspect which was not known to many who had always seen Carlos and Mariam happy married.

 

“In our society, this type of relation is not possible.” Sam told of how these things were made possible by visa manipulations. “She used to get him beaten up by Carlos, and eventually sent him back home and did not send the visa, putting an end to this relation.”

 

A MRS.DALLOWAY -IN TRIPOLI

 

Is her life over?

 

She cannot call back her first legal husband whom she has not seen for almost twenty years. She cannot leave Carlos from whom she has a mentally retarded blind daughter. She pays for the housing and tickets of the first “legal” family of Carlos whom he has called from Pakistan to try their hands in post-revolutionary Libya.

 

          “These are things I cannot tell anyone,” she confided in Sam as they met over coffee. He kept silent as he knew her first husband well, a regular church-goer, who had first introduced Carlos to her. Now he is back in Mumbai in India and rebuilt his life.

 

When upset, he would go for long walks by the beach, feeding cows and crows.

 

Initially he did write to her, trying to find out why there was a delay in the visa. Then he had written to Sam who never replied as he could not tell the truth and did not want to give

misleading answers.

 

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          “Do not tell Carlos about my salary hike,” Mariam told Sam.

 

 “Now his family has come and are staying in the house. I have to swallow because of my daughter.” They drank tea in the gentle sea-breeze coming from the Mediterranean, on a quiet Friday afternoon in the surgery ward.

Her great toe had been amputated last week.

Complications of chronic diabetes , they wrote in the case sheet.

However, Sam knew that this was related to the family which came from Pakistan last week.

 

On returning to his home in the evening, Sam reflected on the many stories which the cows back home must have been witness to, in the beaches of Western India.

 

 

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TWO MASTER PLOTS

          Again in this scenario-we use a blend of the two master-plots

1. Hero goes on  a journey

2. Stranger comes to town

          Both these are used in Virginia Woolf’s “Mrs.Dalloway” and can be an effective tool to go into the minds of the protagonists, their social settings.

 

500 WORDS

 

Part of the 500 words a day challenge by writer blogger-Jeff Goins.         

http://goinswriter.com/my500words/

For a regular diarist the interesting thing will be being selective

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Is her life over?-Scenario 1

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No decent man ought to let his wife visit a deceased wife’s sister. Incredible!
                                             

                                             Mrs.Dalloway-Virginia Woolf

Write in the voice of your favorite writer.

Jeff Goins cue made me think of the many possibilities, from Ruskin Bond-India’s Wordsworth in Prose, to James Joyce-the intimacies of Leopold Bloom, or Amitav Ghosh-the voice of the sea-farers.

I settled to try and write in the voice of “Mrs. Dalloway”.

Only I imagined her to be a Tripoli lady, 52 years of age, having studied in a University in Malta in her younger years, and now the bored wife of a rich businessman whose many personal and professional affairs she tolerates, for the sake of her social position and mask and her children.

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Laughing and delightful, she had crossed Shara Omar Mokhtar when he caught her eye.

Later she texted him not to recognize or approach her in public.

“In our society, this type of relation is not possible.”

She liked him and the many opportunities such a relationship would bring to her.

“I know why Sulaiman helped Hemal to get the farmhouse in Tajoura last summer,” Reem thought to herself.

Her silence did not mean that she did not know.

“Will you come to Sabratha with me this spring” Khaled had asked her as they walked through the garden of their office complex.

” No! That is not possible for me, till my children grow up.”

Reem walked past the stationery shop on Shara Omar Mokhtar.

This was where she used to once buy crayons for her daughter, when she had entered nursery. Next year she would be graduating from architecture school. She had to hurry with the fresh onions and potatoes, or she would be late in preparing the salad. Sulaiman’s friends from Germany liked the way she prepared salad, something she had picked up from their years as students in Frankfurt. The salad , the hopes which life had held out to her. Now she lived from semester to semester of her children. Next year, her daughter would graduate. But she still had three other school going children to care for. No time to walk in Sabratha, especially with foreigners who are buccaneers of sorts.

A MRS.DALLOWAY -IN TRIPOLI

Jeff Goins challenge to try and write in the style of one of your favorite writers made me set an imaginary Clarissa Dalloway in 21st century Tripoli .

Mrs Dalloway was first published in 1925 and concerns a day in the life of Clarissa Dalloway in post-World War I England. It is one of Woolf’s best-known novels. Created from two short stories, “Mrs Dalloway in Bond Street” and the unfinished “The Prime Minister”, the novel’s story is of Clarissa’s preparations for a party of which she is to be hostess.
With the interior perspective of the novel, the story travels forwards and back in time and in and out of the characters’ minds to construct an image of Clarissa’s life and of the inter-war social structure.

For those unfamiliar with the work, Clarissa meets her one time lover Peter Walsh after 30 years, at 11 am on the day she is preparing for a party. Her husband Mr.Richard Dalloway is lunching with a Lady, who has not invited her with her husband. Meeting Peter, just back from India, makes her think of the many possibilities which life would have had if she had married him.

If such a character would exist in Tripoli of 21st century, she would probably meet a Peter Walsh much later in life. The social structures would have made her marry young to a wealthy businessman who treated her like an instrument he owned. Only much later in life, meeting an expatriate worker from another society did she find a model to compare her situation with. However, she keeps silent about her longings and also the many indiscretions of her husband for the sake of her children.

Is her life over?

A 52 year old “Clarissa” in Tripoli’s post-revolutionary society would still find many social structures still the same as in the times of the previous regime. The collapse of the state machinery makes the less well-to-do and compromised sections of society-students, dependent children and wives even more vulnerable, as the rich and powerful have no checks and balances which were available earlier.

She would probably use her daughter who is studying in final year of architecture college as her alter-ego and encourage her to liaison with a foreigner. Her husband would resist such an attempt and would want to marry off his daughter in known family circles.

A SCHOOL CHARACTER-MASTER PLOTS.

The writer Stephen King in his book-On Writing- tells how he modeled some characters on the basis of school girls he knew. He also tells of trying to write 1000 words a day, the importance of the first draft and the re-writing and editing processes. These are similar to what Jeff Goins has said. However, his public challenge of 500 words a day has been a creative way to get us out of our shells.

The two major Master Plots presented in “Mrs.Dalloway” are

1.Hero goes on a journey

2. Stranger comes to town.

Both themes can be seen in the journey of Peter Walsh, he has been on a journey to India and through many relations, and he comes home to Clarissa Dalloway after thirty years of their first love. The question of how life would have turned out if they had married each other comes forward and both characters answer it in their own ways. The rich inner dialogue , stream of consciousness techniques are seen. Both characters are from the same country and Christian background.

In 21st century, with increased mobility, there is more chance of people of different backgrounds, countries, civilizations meeting each other. This can make the richness and complexity even more interesting and building on the two major master plot themes can be a great journey of discovery.

A DOUBLE-WITTED TRIPOLI “MRS.DALLOWAY”

Reem said a polite hello to Huda, the sister of her husband Sulaiman ‘s first wife. There was no avoiding her as they were in the stationery shop in the morning, there were no other customers and Reem could not pretend she had not noticed Huda. Reem had thought she will prepare for the party, and make a quick round of Shara Omar Mokhtar to do some shopping. Huda reminded her of the will her husband Sulaiman had made last summer. Most of his assets would go to the children from his first marriage.

“What about my children,” she had asked Sulaiman after a lot of internal debate of whether to bring up this topic or not.

“I have spent a good quarter century with you, taken care of so many things. Where were the children from your first marriage when you were sick in hospital two years ago,” she had screeched, unable to control herself.

Sulaiman would not discuss this topic with her. Reem had not wanted to think about this but the chance meeting with Huda in the stationery shop had set about a chain of disturbing thoughts.

Reem had to try and see things through her husband Sulaiman’s eyes-one of the tragedies of married life.

Over the past three years, he had become more and more secretive, involved in the affairs of the changes going on after the change in power.

“The rules and regulations, the officials are still the same. But there is a difference. But you will not understand these things,” Sulaiman had brushed her aside when she tried to know the inner dealings going on.

She reached for her cell and texted her friend who she liked but could not meet or recognize openly.

” Maybe you can come to the party I am hosting tonight.”

 

500 words a day
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My 500 Words: A Writing Challenge


For a regular diarist the interesting thing will be being selective

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Waiting at Adana 1994

Dissecting layers ..Art in a Migrant Night Dissecting layers ..Art in a Migrant Night

Jeff Goins suggestion about waiting made me thumb through some diaries of yesteryears.

In her book-Reading like a Writer-Francine Prose tells of one of lessons she learnt from the great short story writer Anton Chekhov.
“I began to think, nothing was wasted, that some day, I would do something with what was happening to me. To use the New Rochelle Bus station in my work.”

The truth of how things are not wasted, but add perspective with the benefit of hindsight, comes through.

THE ENGLISH TEACHERS -SYMBOLS

The reading group which evolved in the coffee tables of Grand Hotel –Tripoli (now closed) was many years in the making. The college English teachers taught us to think with many hats, how to see a work from the Marxist or Psychoanalytic approach, or take a feminist or post-colonial angle, trying to think of what a particular work has to tell about race, gender, nationality or ethnicity. All these approaches can be useful, but some teachers like to have a formalist approach. When you take a formalist approach you tend to take less of the broad themes of love, death, identity, justice and more on form or technique. A formalist may ask- why is this story told in first person, why are the events of the story not told in chronological order, or how was this character introduced.
The first English teacher I befriended in Tripoli was Mr.Francis of ISM International school. I first met him at a stall in the annual fair of the ISM school. I did not know him personally then, but got a good number of interesting books from him. One of them-Every Secret Thing-by Gillian Slovo which I read almost a decade ago, came back to me in many bits and parts as I saw the ceremonies at the passing away of the South African hero Nelson Mandela. The many intimate things which Gillian Slovo tells in her memoirs, including the affairs of her mother, how she left her children and they thought that she was away on some work for the movement, but later realized that her mother was having affairs in those periods of their childhood when they were left alone made interesting food for thought and discussion.

Years later, another English teacher who nudged me towards
post-colonialism, helped dissect issues of subaltern historiography and Marxism. We would sit on our back terrace and see the stories woven in the Cairo Trilogy of Naguib Mahfouz.
“Can I bring a gift for you from Egypt” my friend Ibrahim Gomari told me on one of his visits to Tripoli. He cares for his mother in Cairo as nursing care is not good here. I told him to bring me “The Cairo Trilogy” as his contribution to our “Reading group.”

The Trilogy follows the life of patriarch Al-Jawad across three generations, from 1919 –the Egyptian revolution against British colonizers-to the end of Second World war in 1944. It is a panorama of Egypt through the life of Abd Al-Jawad and his children and grandchildren.

adana 1994

The end of the Trilogy was symbolic. Two brothers raised in the same house, one became a communist and another a Muslim brother. In the last portion of the novel a son is born to the Muslim Brother. This is a symbol of the future of Egypt, as depicted by Mahfouz in this Trilogy, which is very pertinent to this day. I still remember the gentle Mediterranean breeze where the nuances of this work were explained to me by English teachers.

ADANA 1994

After the war of 2011, most English teachers who were close to us medicos left. As medicos we may not have the scholarly constructs of the academics, but we see misery in a direct way, in our work lives.

The night watchmen now are seeming to fall on each other, and things are not looking good.

The reading group lacks the depth which was once brought to it by life long teachers like Mr.Francis, who once explained the subtle evil scheming of a character like Iago. One fine morning, this teacher explained Iago to me-

“Possibly the most heinous villain in Shakespeare, Iago is fascinating for his most terrible characteristic, his utter lack of convincing motivation for his actions”

Technocrats or career diplomats, professional doctors or engineers or businessmen, corporate representatives or marketing executives do not have the richness which an English teacher can bring to a reading group.

Or is this my own lamentation /confession of not being able to maintain the high level which this group had in yester-years. Besides, people who have positional leadership /advantage by way of officialdom or corporate backing sometimes tend to be patronizing beyond their depth of perspective.

Being one of the main facilitators of the group, one branch of the Reading Group meets almost weekly at Adana 1994. As we see the events of the country, two years after the fall of Tripoli in August 2011, we analyzed the Ibsen’s plays- and the premise- The Sins of the Fathers are visited upon the children. How true is this in the personal and social contexts which we live in. This question sparked off some interesting discussions which cannot be discussed in open forum. In the type of security vacuum which exists in Tripoli post-2011, one has to take care.

In these discussions we try to record the daily life of the working professionals from different nationalities in the city of Tripoli.

20 YEARS

Have the armed youngsters heard of Gillian Slovo?
Have they sat and tried to understand the works of Mahfouz and tried to see the meanings in following the life of Al-Sayyid Ahmad Abd Al-Jawad-one of the most famous patriarchs of Arab literature. Are there parallels between the fictional Mr.Jawad and the many “benevelont-dictators” who saw their end in 2011?
And do they know about Iago? What are their own motivations? Are there bigger powers whose motivations make these smaller players puppets? Or is there no time to discuss Iago any more?
Chekhov’s assertion- nothing was wasted, that some day, I would do something with what was happening to me, and whether we can seek answers and lessons in literature came back to our reading group as we went through some works from Africa –Gillian Slovo and Naguib Mahfouz which give a window into society of the two main halves of the past century.
In the works of Gillian Slovo we come to know of one of Mandela’s greatest regrets-the fact that his children, and the children of his comrades, had been the ones to pay the price of their parents’s commitment, as encompassed in the words- “You are the father to all our people, but you have never had the time to be a father to me”

A WEEKLY SUMMARY

Every week, we meet at Adana 1994 and summarize one work of literature and try to see meanings and lessons…
Francine Prose in her book-Reading like a Writer-told of her lessons from Chekhov, her forays into “Close Reading” and her wish- “To use the New Rochelle Bus station in my work.”
Adana 1994 is an attempt to do that in Tripoli.

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Part of the 500 words a day challenge by writer -Jeff Goins.

My 500 Words: A Writing Challenge


For a diarist the interesting thing will be being selective

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